Went to see mum in the hospital tonight.

Even it's a scheduled operation, even she looked very well when she was getting into the hospital, but anyway, she 'd feel very tired after the operation, and she just looked like very tired,... and looked like my grandma( her mother) a bit, even the way to cough.

Just an imagination, but that's how she looked like if she got sick someday.

Am I ready for anyone close to me going away? No, surely not. I imagined this situation, and for sure I will be very sad.